So, this weekend I did what I haven’t done in some time now. I was in an area were I didn’t know anyone. I was completely and totally alone. I rode to Atlanta, which is only about an hour car ride to where I stayed in a hotel room by myself, did dinner at a restaurant by myself and even went to a store by myself. A lot of these things are what I used to dream of doing while on the World Race. However, I am going to be honest with you it didn’t go over so great for me.
I seriously felt under attack. Satan seriously was attacking the person I used to be. At first I blamed it on having too much introvert time, but then a roommate seriously called it out when I was talking to her, and it felt like I was hit in the face with a ton of bricks. I had all of these feelings about how I should go do the same things I once did; however, I knew this was not a personal desire. I had no personal desire to go out to a bar alone or go to the club down the street, but Satan sure would have loved me to go.
I am writing this publicly because this could be something Satan tempts me with for some time now at least when I am alone. 1 Peter 5:8 says – “Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.
The song called Marvelous light by Ellie Holcomb says it best, click here
I am not who I once was
Defined by all the things I’ve done
Afraid my shame would be exposed
Afraid of really being known
But then you gave my heart a home
So I walked out of the darkness and into the light
From fear of shame into the hope of life
Mercy called my name and made a way to fly
Out of the darkness and into the light
With years of keeping secrets safe
Wondering if I could change
‘Cause when you’re hiding all alone
Your heart can turn into a stone
And that’s not the way I want to go
So I walk out of the darkness and into the light
From fear of shame into the hope of life
Mercy called my name and made a way to fly
Out of the darkness and into the light
There’s no place I would rather be
Your light is Marvelous Your light is Marvelous
You have come to set us free You are Marvelous Your light is Marvelous
[lalalalalalalala…]
So I walked out of the darkness and into the light
From fear of shame into the hope of life
Mercy called my name and made a way to fly
Out of the darkness and into the light
[lalalalalalalala…]
